Thursday, December 24, 2009

like i do...

no one would bring you the gifts
at midnight hours,on your birthday
no one would remember you all the times
no one would wish for you in every pray
but i do..

no one else would come,
drenched in rain
just to see you once being with some other guy,
knowingly entering the world of pain
but i do..

No one would give up his work
just to share a cup of coffee with you
no one's heart feels that low
till the vibes reaches you
but i do..

No one else would call you when
you are feeling low
no one would stand in a corner
just to see you go
like i do

no one would care to see through those eyes
the tears inside that sheepish smile
like i do

no one else would be sad
just because you are
and won't share something joyous,that he had
like i do

no one would avoid an evening wid friends
just to have a look at you in the mall
and waiting for that glance
which makes me feel spring in the month of fall
like i do

no one else would feel the way
that you make me feel
no one would remember you
after you're long gone...
like i do...

wanderer heart of mind
became yours the day i saw you
when will you understand
no man will ever love you this much
but i do...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

never ending wait.....

Staying alive staying awake
can't take anymore this endless wait
waiting for you to make a comeback
picking my dreams for love's sake

incomplete feelings so are the words
lips seamed even after heart break

Shared dreams and sharing life
so little time so much to make
will die without you whenever you said
sound immature but not fake

can't spend the night alone
across this desert,alone can't make
Days doesn't seem to end at all
keeps on rising like a tidal wave

sometimes miss those starry nights
sleeping in embrace yet awake
lying in your lap with closed eyes
in my hairs, your fingers rake

it burns like a wet wood
smoke filled breath and eyes hate
And i miss you
like a desert miss the rain
want to kiss you and make it up
come back to me before its too late

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

yes! it hurts...

i look back to my life
it looks hollow and incomplete
even the feats that i have achieved

doesn't make a difference,
those big strides
i want to get away,distant across the sky
holding your hand,flying by my side

remember the good times
we've had
don't let those moments fade
a thing in past ,that wasn't bad

you know how much i love you
you don't know how it feels
these wounds hurt too much
too much that time could heal

too much pain that one could bear
too much disappointment one could see
that heart cries in such despair
but no one else could hear

its fu**ed up here
its a total mess
life doesnt seem to get better
its getting bad and less

no matter how bad it gets
no matter how i fare
just the matter of life and death
never been much of a dare

its all over that i know
and i know its not! instead
atleast remember me once in life
that isn't too much that i need

so hold me now and touch me now
and whisper those three words
you know i love you so much
that it hurts

Monday, November 2, 2009

just let it go....

why do i remember you
why don't i just let go
why don't you forget me
why did u give me a call

Have no regrets in life except you
nothing much is left though
the pain, that you left me
why don't i just let go

i can't forget you
and trying not to miss you yet
i might have broken
but my heart is still intact

why do you ask me to get along
for i have no faith in promises that turn wrong
still why do i keep falling for them
why do i still hum that song

why does it keep coming
that with you i belong
why do i regret that
together we didn't last long

my heart has sunk
in a sea of despair
i am burning in the waters
of tears and flare

why dont i let you go
wake up and end this pain
this dream doesn't seem to end
though life might end with your disdain

Monday, October 12, 2009

restlessness in my heart....

paralyzed by your memories
crippled by your thoughts
i want to return to you
but am afraid of the after effects

i dont know if you would love me again
or leave me as you left earlier
i dont know if you would adore me
of hate me for coming near

people tend to forget
i am no more than a dream to you
your dream became a nightmare to me
your's got over,
i am still living it through

earlier when we used to talk on phone
i was reluctant to say "love you" at the end
now when we talk
i refrain myself from saying "love you" again

when i used to pass by you
i was reluctant to see you through
now when i meet you in the way
i just try not to see you

times change,love changes to paranoia
emotions becomes reluctance,and feelings fall apart
the sweetest three words in the whole world
now leave a bitter taste in heart

waiting for you and hating myself
for not being worthy of your love
i forgot the things you did to me
please come back i have had enough

this restless soul
and cravings of my heart
i stopped thinking my mind
i just don't want to be apart

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

girl like you!

hairs flowing from head to shoulder
blue eyes with depth of sea
i saw you walking down my heart
oh my God! this is all i see

Winds careressing long locks
rains washing that lovely face
would i ever get a chance to touch you?
a chance ever to change my fate

when you walk past me
my heart gets swayed towards you
when you walk towards me
my heart sinks in the blue

hands shiver at your touch
a cold runs through my spine
eyes looking deep into my eyes
every heart beat says you are mine

Darling! let those hairs flow
don't tie them with my heart
the way you entangle them and tuck behind your ear
i go crazy, this is thou's most b'ful piece of art

when you stretch your arms
those curves set me ablaze
desire to embrace you sparks
your body seems to be the burning flame

YOu don't know how b'ful you are
you don't know even Gods desire you
your innocence brings me down on my knees
world seems to be colored in your hue

your cannabis fragrance gets me high
your touch sets my spirit free
your kiss blows up my heart
your love lifts me upto thee

i want to be your charming prince
i want to sweep you off your feet
i want you to walk into my life
i want you this love to be complete

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

You've become my obsession...

when i am alone
i think of me with you
when i am in crowd
my eyes search for you

when i breathe
i smell your fragrance
when i sleep
i dream of our romance
when i wake up
i want to be admired by you
when i dress up
i want to be desired by you

when i go out
i make plans to bump in you
when i come home
i pray to make them through

when i meet you
i want to stay forever
the moment when you leave
i dont wan't that ever

i see you and
i want to see you more
i love you and
my heart is feeling sore

a thousand things
i want to say to you
but even million words are less
to say , my heart is feeling blue

you are embossed on my heart
like a tatoo
you are carved on my heart
like a scar
i have your impressions on my body
my soul's the sand,
with your foot marks

i am the living example of your memoirs
i am the song ,the song our heart's choir

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


its ok that i am heartbroken
its ok that i am alone
its ok that love left your heart
its ok that it turned to stone

its ok that pieces of my heart
every night slither my eyes and soul
its ok i have hollow in my chest
its ok that my body has taken toll

its ok that my dreams shattered
its ok that my nights deprived of sleep
its ok that my sun never rose
its ok that my sunshine is bleak

its ok that my part of sky
is blood red with clouds of doom
its ok that my starry nights
are filled with tears of gloom

its ok that the roads are empty
filled with the fallen autumn leaves
swaying away are the dry winds
falling with me the hollowed trees

its ok that the house is deserted
its ok that the eyes withered
its ok that i am waiting forever
horizon has melted and sand is dispersed

its ok i couldn't keep up with world
its ok that i am left alone
its ok you are ahead in race,
facing the judgement i am on my own

its ok you have changed
its ok you forgot bygone
its ok you rose to the occasion
its ok you held someone

its ok that i am lonely
in the eve of my life
its ok that, now i can't stand,
walked whole life on the edge of knife

its ok that i dont have a hand to hold
its ok that i dont have anyone to see
the light of life is caged in the body
the bird inside is craving to flee

i am still happy
i am still delighted
i have spent my life remembering you
your memories have kept me lighted

Monday, September 14, 2009

Never Ever Love...

why do we need love
why to be with someone,indeed
to love someone is to be slave
of emotions,lust and greed

because love betrays
it betrays all
you never rise in love
you always fall

because love is like a season
no season prolongs ever
once this spring is over
autumn resides forever

because love is pain
an arrow across the heart
because it hurts always
once your love departs

when you are alone
you are on your own
but when you are lonely
you are the one left only

so never love and never fall
never listen to the heart's call
never say love you again
never ever feel the pain

Thursday, September 10, 2009


such a heartless i have become
i no more believe what you say
i no more believe your tears
i no more believe the feelings you portray

such a heartless i have become
i no more think of you when am alone
i no more dream of you when i am asleep
i no more disturb the memories bygone

such a heartless i have become
i no more cry when i remember you
i no more scream when i dream of you
i no more care for what i say to you

such a heartless i have become
because i dont love anyone now
because i don't have faith in thou
so to him i no more bow

such a heartless i have become
because you left me when i needed
because you didn't listen when i pleaded
because you didn't care when my heart bleeded

such a heartless i have become
you didn't put a fight against the world
because you stranded me alone in the desert
you left me to the ocean with the sales unfurled

such a heartless i have become
do you still think its great to love
world is mere and love is above
but in truth this is not a place to belove
the souls are mean and hearts void of ..

Friday, September 4, 2009

love you always...

in the silence of night
i think about us
the nights we used to spend,
talking till dawn from dusk

in the silence of night
when phone used to ring
i used to wake up at once
as am sleeping on a spring

the times when the roommates ,lie awake
with the giggling sounds we make

the times i used to sit in the balcony
in the freezing cold
to stop someone hearing,the exchange of kisses
with all the passion i could hold

sometimes when i used to keep quiet
you getting annoyed
and making me say something
with your lovely plights

sometimes when i fell asleep
you didn't say a word
waited for me to wake up
and ,then "love you" is all i've heard
and me feeling the guilt
gave stupid excuse
you just laughed and said
that my snores kept you bemused

do you remember when
we had those silly fights
when you used to cry
and i used to advise

now sometimes, i stare at my phone
wait for it to ring
hope of hearing you brings me to life
makes me smile your silly whining

but the times have changed
feelings have estranged
you found your soulmate and
vows have exchanged

if we say love is above all
why do we dont believe
to go under the oath of God
why is this all we need

no one forgets their first love
and first one you are mine
no matter who's my soul mate
but for me you are the one divine

but its not necessary
to keep reviving the gone
i am not the one you adored
i don't want you to mourn

i will keep loving you
and no one could take your place
i will keep loving you
till there's life in space

i got hurt and bruised
when you said good bye,
lost in the memoirs of ours
i sit in the dark and cry

i will keep loving you
and dont need anything in return
no matter where you are
no matter if my ashes burnt

stagnant life...

looks like the time has stopped
looks like that life has flopped
looks like that i am sleeping or
looks like am down and knocked

doesn't look like things will change,
the unidirectional winds will change
i dont know if i could flip my wings
in the place where i am estranged

looks like i am chained
as a slave, i am trained
was i bound to be this kind
or is this what i have framed

when would i break free
when would i stop being down on my knee
when would i stop blaming others
for the failures that i have seen

i promise that i would run
i wont stop before reaching the Sun
i would give hope to others

only then i would say that i am done!!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

light at the end of tunnel..

there is always a silver lining
among the darkest clouds
a diamond ring
after the sun is out

an occurence of spring
after the fall
a ray of hope
after every night fall

but even that's not true
for everything
when someone leaves
the memories sting

why i keep falling
into this loop
i fight ,come out
but always land in the soup

why can't we just
forget eveything
be the strangers again
give up the endless searching

but it feels
i am gonna loose
the life is in dilemma
and i am confused

the memory entangle
my feet in knots
i stop somewhere
halting my trot

looks like the light at the end of tunnel
is the glow of fire
of my hopes, funeral pyres

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

before you leave me..

remember those days
when it snowed for a week
skies were dark
and lights were bleak

we were sitting together
in front of the fire
wrapped in a blanket
with burning desires

cold hands and cold feet
pounding hearts desperate to meet

meeting of eyes then trying to evade
touching of hands and feelings persuade

the falling in love
and flowing down the slide
closing of eyes
and tongues collide

warm breath and moist hands
making of love to never pretend

kissing the neck
and whispering in ears
hiding in me and
caressing my hair

emotions burst alongwith tears
found solace ,shed all fears

that was the night of Godly trance
souls met and bodies dance

till the day when you had to go
overwhleming hearts and souls hollow

eyes withered no tears to shed
which was this place, where love lead

but before you leave me
i must say
i would wait
till this life stay

before you leave me
let me say
i would love you
till this heart sway

times come and times go
no one can slow down this flow
stop and turn and see me once
down the lane where memories grow

before you leave me
just stop and turn
i'll close my eyes forever
seeing your face is my last yearn

Monday, August 31, 2009

love left us

Those were the days
we remained in embrace
those were the days
of love at every place

those were the days
when you were around
those were the days
our love was reknowned

cant forget the time
you kissed me for the first time
heart left me and blew away
i was singing with chimes

that time of life
when you became my obsession
the exctasy of heart
when i was your possession

Now this heart wanders alone
love left me since you are gone
Now my heart does'nt beats
i left my soul in my clone

Now the seasons dont bother me
because its autumn always
heart forgot to bloom
gone were the days

Whenever i breathe
something pokes me in the heart
but a ray of hope
still shimmers apart

the gloomy clouds circling
all above my life
heart bleeds with pain
like its cut with a knife

i am waiting till this journey ends
If i am gone i will wait in the sands

Friday, August 28, 2009

wish those times stay

the times when
we are together
those times seems
to not last forever

we don't seem
to understand
the importance of time
when our souls blend

we sit together
and not say a word
holding hands and
stare, till eyes withered

making fun of
watever you do
ending the bicker
with i love you

making you jealous
with delusive flirts
feel the same
and know it hurts

thinking thousand things
to talk to you
mind fails to respond
when heart is with you

moments we cherish
throughout out life
it pains a lot
when love aint alive

the importance is only known
when you are gone
feeling the dusk
and i am alone

world reminds of you
cant forget you even in dreams
think of going apart
and i wake up with scream

this is my life
after you're gone
love bequethed
and i am alone

time when you were in my nights
you were in my days
we were in love
hope the time would've stayed

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

i wish you were here

when i wake up at dawn
feeling the cool breeze
and the orange sky
i close my eyes

and wish you were here

i go out for a walk
engrossed in your thoughts
chirping of birds on a tree
frees me of the knot

and i wish
you were here

when it rains
and the rainbow appears
i feel the colors
and feel you near
the raindrops wash the clot

and i wish
you were here

sometimes i wander alone in afternoon
the bright sun shines
as i am standing in dunes
the hot winds washes the sand
your face in my chest and you hold my hand

these moments are like mirage
always far but always near

i wish i wish i wish
you were here

the dusk falls
night embraces the day
even the sun can't fight
the coming dismay

i walk towards the darkning fear
realizing to fight it alone
and i wish you were here

the moonlit sky
and the milky way
they dont enrich anymore
the memories foray

in the sky i imagine your face somewhere
tears roll down my face

and i wish you were here
i wish you were here
i wish you were here

life without you....

with you i feel life
and joy that's rife
love oozes out with every feel
you transform to my God
your love makes me kneel

you eyes give me a glance
sets my heart beats in a trance
wind that blows your hairs
touch your face
and whispers in my ears

you are an ocean of love,
a sea of lust
a lake of faith
a bond of trust

i miss you my darling
i miss the taste of your kiss
i miss the feather touch
i miss the moments of bliss

i miss those blue eyes
i miss those pouty lips
i miss those long hairs
arms which held me in those cosy grips

without you ,am alone
dejected and lost, in my own
Life brought to a point
where love is far and
emotions are prone

counting my days to see you again
cant stop dreaming about you again
cant wait to see love began

an incomplete love...

The day we met;
I just can't forget.

The first 'Hi'!
When you were passing by.

I can't forget;
The day we met.

So many questions in your blue eyes.
So many queries in my heart's depth.
A pretty smile on your face.
And every answer given, nothing's left.

That day I believed in love at first sight,
As I couldn't sleep that night.

I decided that I'll hold your hand,
But it was a different feeling at your end.
I thought of you at all the time.
But you thought we are just friends.

I said those words to you,
And you left without saying anything.
It was the longest wait I ever had for a reply.
I couldn't sleep, my eyes didn’t blink.

You replied something, to my fears,
That we can't be lovers but just peers,
I couldn't listen to anything else,
You broke my heart, left me in tears.

Still you wanted me to be your friend.
But I just could not understand.

You don't understand that love never die.
It’s difficult to forget.
And you were my first love.
And there was nothing I could get.

We parted and you left.
I tried but could not turn my love to hate!
I too just couldn't do anything
and left everything to fate.

I tried to get you again and again.
But every time you were the same.
I truly love you my love!
Believe me once in God's name.

Sometimes when you make me feel really bad.
I'll play a song in a loop and cry.
It was a waste of time and it won’t seem important
The next time when I see u smile.

I still admire you, and I still love you.
But you seem to have gone far.
Now you have a love in your life,
and I am still the lonely star.

Your presence is felt always in my thoughts and deeds.
Only you are the one whom I need.

I would be there, whenever you return
And I won't disappoint you, if that's my turn.