its all a lie....

tearful soul yet smiling persuasion

when i fell through grace
eternal moment of dubious silence

hate,embarrassment,disgrace

your admittance of love
again!! my luck betrayed
ah!! that lucky bastard
got, for what i forever prayed
                                   here i am standing clueless
                                  shameless,stubborn "Gentleman"
                                   smiling through nagging pain
                                      forever hating myself
i saw in those blue eyes
the man whose love they bore
for the man i just came to know
for the man i hated most
                                  never felt so helpless
                                 embracing to ease your pain
                                  could you see into my eyes
                                   my hapless smile insane
i don't know if i hate you
or i hate myself more
for if i loved you so much
i should have known your love
                                 but same applies to you
                                 you knew i was loving you
                                  but why didn't you tell me
                                    atleast a hint,a clue
now i don't believe in love
now i hate even the thought
apathy and hatred
replaced the feelings lost

Prompt: woke up from a sad thought..
" there is nothing called love"...